Tuesday, February 23, 2016

I'm Not Her

I'm Not HerI'm Not Her by Janet Gurtler
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Woo! First review in a looong time.
“For the first time in my life, I didn’t feel envy…” 

Tess is the exact opposite of her beautiful, athletic sister. And that’s okay. Kristina is the sporty one, Tess is the smart one, and they each have their place. Until Kristina is diagnosed with cancer. Suddenly Tess is the center of the popular crowd, everyone eager for updates. There are senior boys flirting with her. Yet the smiles of her picture-perfect family are cracking and her sister could be dying. Now Tess has to fill a new role: the strong one. Because if she doesn’t hold it together, who will?
For some reason, I was under the impression that this book was about how Tess dealt with the aftermath of her sister's death, but instead it's what happens once her sister is diagnosed. So the beginning wasn't what I expected it to be, but that's my fault. :P

I'm a sucker for a contemporary because even when characters drive me mad, that's normal-ish, right? Real people can annoy the heck out of me, so I cut characters a little slack. Still, some things stuck out to me.

MC: Tess
How whiny can she get? And so convinced that everyone is talking about her all the time.
I feel eyes inspecting me. I'm different to them now. I'm the girl whose sister has cancer.
While everyone probably is talking about her, it all was told instead of shown, so I rarely actually heard people talking about her, just Tess thinking they were. Which gave me the impression they probably weren't.
She's also super mean, yet endearing. How can you not feel bad for her? She's always been shoved to the back burner in favor of her older sister, but even more so now that Kristina has cancer. Still, she's so, so mean all the time.
I lean forward so we're almost nose to nose. "You're fat and mean and no one likes you," I hiss. I know what to say to hurt her the most.
She said that to her supposed best friend, who, tbh, was also super mean.

The Romance
Oh my gosh. It was so, so awkward, especially because I couldn't keep track of the four main boys, even though she only has a crush on two or three of them. What happened at the end was adorkable, but before that there was this:
His fingers brush against my cheek and he wipes away a tear I didn't even know was there. And then he does the strangest thing. He lifts his finger to his mouth and licks my tear. It should be gross, but it's so sweet another tear drops from my eye.
"You taste sad," he says and then groans. "Man, Tess. You're just a kid."
Then he kisses her on the lips.
What bugged me the most is how much older he is than her. Yeah, my parents are three years apart, but it's a big deal in high school. She's a freshman. He's a senior. She's not even old enough to give consent to sex! (In Michigan, at least. Tess is 15 and you have to be 16). Yeah, it never went that far, but I couldn't stop thinking about how if it did, the 18 year old could go to jail.

The Writing
Tess's narration is super straight forward, which I love. She says exactly what she's thinking, everyone else be darned! I couldn't put it down. I haven't been reading in a while, but this helped pull me back in. :)

Given how much Tess was into art, I'm surprised there wasn't more about it. She keeps saying it's such a big deal, but she only mentioned it every once in a while. Also, she saw one add for a competition and suddenly it became super important? I don't know how the art industry works, but for writing, there are hundreds of competitions all the time. You have to write the right genre, go through rounds of judging, get your soul crushed a few times, ect. I wanted to know the details about this contest! How does it work for artists? Tell me!

Kristina's struggle with osteosarcoma (bone cancer) felt very real. She had cancer and she hated it. Yeah, she "battled bravely", but what else can you do? I'd love to read this book from her perspective.

I absolutely loved the ending. Spoilers, but no names: (view spoiler) The last twenty pages really made the book for me. OHMYGOSH SUPERMAN IS SO CUTE. Clark Trent (yes, that's his real name) was exactly the bright spot Tess needs in her life.

I have so much more to say (like how Tess's parents are THE WORST), but I've gone on long enough. ;) More reviews to come though. I am officially back!

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Monday, February 22, 2016

Doing All the Things

I'm Not Her
I'm Not Her
The main character sure is whiny, and I'm still waiting for her sister to die (I thought this book was going to focus on the aftermath, not the cancer itself), but I'm a sucker for contemporaries. I needed something else to focus on while reading...

Winter (The Lunar Chronicles, #4)
For some reason fantasy novels make me anxious (the stakes are so much higher!) so I'm taking this slowly. But it's so, so good. I love being back with my favorite characters after a long break.

I had to go to Goodreads to get the links to the books...when I typed in "goo" google came up first. :( Goodreads used to. It shall again!

The Clone Wars TV show. We're on the last season which is half as long as the other five. :P Also, Ahsoka is fab. I'm so glad she's in the Rebels show, even though the way she envisioned herself is kinda different from how she actually looks when she's older.
from here
Sitting at: community college, waiting for my sister to get out of her class. This semester I'm taking college math and government. Not bad.

Drinking/eating: cherry lemonade from Wendy's. They have the coolest drink machine.

Wearing: a pretty put-together outfit! Purple shirt, favorite jeans, black jacket earrings my friend made, and a super cool owl necklace.

Writing: the conclusion to this post.

Dang, I'm witty.

Saturday, February 20, 2016


  1. I hate writing intros to blog posts so I'm just not gonna.
  2. After watching this video by iiSuperwomanii (FYI there's some language), I decided to pull out the whiteboard from my closet to make a "Done" list of all that I did that day. The only problem is that I did a TON that day, which made today seem not as good. Still, I want to keep at it for at least a week to see how it goes. Maybe it will make me feel more productive, or at least realize that I'm not as lazy as I thought. Or maybe it will do the opposite.
  3. My licence arrived in the mail today! It's honestly not what I wanted to arrive (still waiting for the ipod we got off ebay), but hey, I'm not complaining. The picture looks much better now than when I first saw it as the DMV.
  4. I've been compiling a huge list of music in my head to add to said ipod. Hopefully it'll come Monday, since it can't on Sunday. :P But goodness knows the post office employees need a day off.
  5. I painted my nails white, then picked two of my mom's nail polish and made polka dots. My two year old bro calls them "po-ko dots". Such adorbs.
  6. I currently go to a youth group that's slowing failing. The start of the ear was awesome--the guy in charge is 22 and was really honest about his own relatable struggles, so we were all pretty happy with him. But I think SOMEONE ELSE (like, ya know, his employer) wanted him to go a different rout that some call...controlling. And I'd have to agree. I don't think I'll last the year there, but I've been thinking about making sort of an anti-yg the day before, and maybe my friends and I will just do that instead.
  7. I haven't replied to any comments yet, and for that I'm sorry. I suck at that. For some reason comments really stress me out, despite how overwhelmingly positive they were in my last post. I was truly touched, y'all. Thanks.